7.8 - 7.13 - receiving without effort

7.8

Sawan - July 11 - Lord Shiva, purification, release, devotion, healing the warrior, refining, shedding the warrior archetype, put down the sword, healing attack & defense programs & belief structures

healing separation in community, pushing people away, interfacing with those teaching in contrast / learning from contrast

Ketu in Purva Phalguru nakshatra - July 6-20 - pleasure, creativity, emotional healing - ketu dissolves illusions

healing: if i don’t suffer it’s not real, if it comes with ease, it can’t be trusted

what bothers you is believing in a meaningless world, the disconnect between what you have reached internally and the outer world of posture and performance, imitation

stop editing the fire / the flow to be palatable, receive for being, not doing

let the death happen, die to self, release in gratitude, don’t compare, shedding layers of performance in real time

the priestess path - it’s not about performance of tasks, it’s about presence, frequency, embodiment

ancient, priestess / goddess wound, exiled seer, silenced mystic - healing: if i offer this humbly & purely, will someone tell me i’m good? can i trade this effort for love & safety?

treat each act as communion, a sacrament of sharing, the extension of the code. nothing is static, the codes are living breathing transmissions, the code is alive and it is alive in you. this is the body of christ, it is the offering of life, we all have this gift and it is always shared and extended in both, all when truly given. the self meeting and reuniting with self in unity and remembrance. it is a sacred act. all things can be done in this way, god is in everything i see because god is in my mind.

presence in the fullness of the now, through discomfort the practice of alchemy is embodied, it is offered, anchoring and bridging between dimensions. walking through physical pain in order to alchemize it. the solution is within the problem, the problem doesn’t really exist

be seen without explaining, let it be raw, strange

trust that what you need will appear the moment it is needed, no grasping or begging.

JOY - breaking the belief chain and needing to use joy, to explain or justify joy, channel joy into something recognizable or monetizable or useful - just letting it be. you don’t need to prove you are christ, you just need to stop pretending that you are not christ.

to heal: holding tension as identity, believing safety requires vigilance, ancestral grief and scarcity held in the mouth, deep cellular fear of truly inhabiting your own power. pain will release when the guard does, releasing “i have to stay alert to stay alive”, “i must bear the weight of this alone”, “if i soften, i’ll fall apart”, “i’m not allowed to receive the healing, only to give it.” - from the fascia, bones, roots of the teeth

7.9

accessibility - not watering yourself down, but opening to receiving, letting yourself shine so that your aligned path can make itself to you, so it can emerge from you.

letting go of the idea of being crazy, it makes it impossible for it to appear in your physical field

letting down your defenses, letting in the power of the light, opening yourself to divine masculine christ, to let him in, this is the physical

7.10

clearing the pattern of holding sacred things in secret because they seem insane, immature, or delusional - claiming interdimensional knowing without apology

clearing the loop of longing as identity - clearing the sacral imprint of deferred union

clearing: it only exists if i can’t have it, if something is sacred it is not for this world, it would be contaminated, i would contaminated or it would contaminate me. if you really desire something, that you are not meant to have it. persecution, loss, mistaken vows of denial as devotion.

healing belief that love can only be a metaphor, deep nervous system patterns of sacred pain, not believing joy is for you, that you are the one that does for others

trust embodiment

clear fear of being caught in a loop of effort without reward. grief-based, trying so hard and still being let down. betrayal by effort

7.11

shedding the aspect of identity that still holds fear around success and visibility, fear that if you step into the spotlight in any context that you will be misunderstood, mocked, consumed, or in danger.

fear that your inner most being could be tainted or distorted, this is a lie, spirit is perfection

clearing core memories of when opening led to death, abuse, violence, ostracizing, abandonment, homelessness, starvation - clearing when it made you a target.

you do not need to choose between purity and prosperity, spiritual integrity and material presence, stillness and expression. navigating between dimensional experience and expression

7.13

resources and nourishment

there have been remembrances of galactic unwinding / unraveling again, this comes in spirals of relevance

the feeling of being split open from the midline. recognize the shifts that are taking place and why your body may be reacting the way it is. your relationship to self and how you define self is changing in the code of your body. it is tactile (the code), it is not symbolic in the sense that it will change your form and your experience completely, if you let it. in reality it is a representational manifestation of choice displayed in form code

3333 mastery, christ, spiritual purpsoe, alignment through surrender

it doesn’t require bravery when you are in remembrance of your truth, it simply is. you see the decision is in mind, not action. the action flows from the written code. all computer systems (mock) are a representation of the dimensional resonant instruction code of harmonic experience (levels) (rings) (fabrics).

the codes is not static, it lives and breathes, it moves through all, the code is ever changing, god is not the code but from where the code but from there the code springs, from mind. it is of mind but no the mind that is thinking it itself, but the code is written always from the inside of it, you’re projecting yourself.

—later —

recoding masculine false distorted, inverted, tyrannical, enslaving, impotent, corrosive, parasitic, invasive, violating. satanic false god, inverted god, masculine face of god, false mask. satan/god reversals, deception, ares, saturn, mars, capricorn, devil, archetypal foundations of samsara, the reinforcement of the false structure through the insistence on clinging to form, to story. forgiving the devil, releasing the devil from its archetypal structure, the throne we place it on whether or not we think we believe in it, we let it run it’s course through our lives, releasing the devil code, releasing satanic code from the structure, detaching it from identity code. disempowering these structures by recognizing you gave them all the meaning they have. the only real meaning is the love of the one life.

releasing all life from within the structure, releasing that which we have used to imprisoned the self. all that we perceive in separation is a part of self. when we forgive, we release all life from the imprisonment of story and structure that seemingly endlessly plays out, that is bringing the end of time. you see now, you hold no record, you create. you will.

freedom. choice. restoring the resonant foundation of the universal hologram

inanna / ishtar. when i intended to pull through for masculine healing, this life force sexual destruction, transfiguration through life force energy but very very powerful, embodied and sensually felt