11.9 - union beyond form: alchemizing grief
Grief, the heart, loss, not getting what you wanted, the abject sorrow of not being physically loved on earth. This grief suspends you and disconnects you from your soul, it keeps you too much in your body.
Everyone talks about people not knowing how to ground in the body and not being in the body but I find the spiritual disconnect to be the opposite. The body, in it’s nature as illusion, necessary only as a vehicle for the dream world, is all we know, all we believe in. If disconnected from the awareness of your soul by choice, if you don’t believe that you have one, where would you be if not in your body? To be in the body alone, such as the body is in the predominant dimensional bandwidth most humans are participating with, in my experience, is to be in pain.
All experience of embodiment that I can harken, that felt “realm” to this realm were absolute pain, sorrow, shock, horror, dread. When my body was realized, I was in trouble in one way or another. The heart would be the retreat, but to be in the heart truly, pain would not be realized and this manifestation of your body would not exist.
We are not our bodies, they are not inherent to our beingness, the experience of the real is absolutely not contingent upon them. To be in and of your body is to be in time, which is not a function of true reality. When we are truly in a process of creation or joy, many people describe the sensation (or lack thereof) of losing track of time or being outside of time. This is not a function of your body, but of a more expanded dimensional sensory network of the one mind.
Q. Why be in a body if we are not meant to have physical experiences / entanglements with others? Or is this just for me?
You cannot live in the old world and bring the new, which is not of this dimensional bandwidth of physicality. But you despair for nothing. Don’t cling to the old. Imagine love at the level of your soul. It doesn’t mean your body will not be involved. It is love you have not experienced in your body, it is not of the body. This is part of the process of giving up your body, or the belief in death, without dying. It is not death but life - we know you cannot see this yet. It is easy for those in spirit to suggest you do not mourn this perceived loss and we want to impress you are not set back by the purging process. You are inspired to touch pain to release it from you.
This is your biggest vulnerability and you did come to change this paradigm. Try to detach from comparing your life to one that you did not come to live. You bring a peace that is not of this world. The reality of union is not of the physical world.
He came for the same reason your father comes to you (this is spirit talking to me about certain people in my own life who appear in vision as well as the divine masculine counterpart that holds all archetypes within it and expresses individually through people and through nature and through all things) - there is no gone, it is the nature of unity, the interconnected web of life that is ever flowing, ever showing it’s connection in new ways. You are still learning lessons and still helping each other, but you do know that all happens in energy. It’s not to be worked out in the physical in this now as you cannot work out / talk to your father in the physical anymore either. The physical as you know it is dissolving, there won’t be the same kind of roles, but there is always deep love and there is physical union with counterparts. There is that dream on a higher level of showing and reorganizing truth within the other. There will still be babies and they will still be made such as they organically are.
This is not a cause for sadness, but you see the beneficial opportunity for clearing grief. It is an opportunity to experience the vast and complicated, the never ending nature of connection between souls. It is a joy, it is a transmutational touch point for detaching from physical circumstances. It is a method by which to know you are never alone. You are much more together than you could be physically. This doesn’t make you a loser, or sad, or living in the past - time isn’t like that and you know it.
The masculine holds all masculine archetypes within and so they have different faces. It is clearing the masculine and healing the masculine within you in all facets that need healing. These are all aspects within you - remember all others are a reflection of self. This is a part of unity embodiment and to know the self as one. This is beautiful when you clear the grief and attachment to past roles of hopes based in desirous attachment and of distorted reversal energy of entrapment. Souls shift and roles change - as we expand it will look much different.
It’s not about cutting off or dissolving connection but to expand what it means to be connected and where that connection lives.
It’s all fodder for growth and expansion. It’s never one way. It’s the meaning that you ascribe to it based on what you are learning. You need to release from you out of fear - of abandonment, of being out cast, strangeness, unlovability, wrongness somehow - and understanding the true meaning of shared reality in love. This doesn’t have a pretty answer you can tie up in a bow and it is ever changing as you evolve. It’s all aspects of yourself - false identities you believe in that as you access more of the truth, your soul will not allow you to hold in awareness because it is stronger than your ego.
Yes, this is rapidly trying to clear and because you are always connected, your family will come through to assist you and you them. It is the same fear, the same pain that is clearing from you as from him - there are many relationships that have this function. As paradigms are shifting, these griefs are coming up because the structure that they are connected to - these are actually the same - at different dimensional levels - are dissolving and so they cannot exist within you.
You never heal alone. It is beautiful. It’s coming out forcefully because it is heavy and you carry for many because of the nature of your highest self which holds many within its network. You have created many and you are aware of them, you are aware of the collective and you read the patterns and happenings through the symbolic events of your own life.
Letting go of what you thought you missed, of you thought you were left out and how you blamed and hated yourself for it. How you believed it was from some sin, some deficiency or error on your part.
This is to soften your heart and open it to forgiveness and love of self and all others with you. To melt the walls you built around it, the harshness you have for yourself or nastiness, the judgment and disbelief.
Child of light, be calm, you are connected to everyone you have ever known and those you will never meet, one in the reality of love, in the endless tapestry of all life where you are needed for it to be complete.
It is not weak to keep your heart soft, gentle, and open. It is not naive to look on all that has happened and see only the love in it, to forgive and undo all else. That is to see with the eye of your heart and to truly love. It is not weak to love. Love is what you are. To see this is to step into your truth and dissolve the shame that you hold for being what you are. The sadness and the grief - the oddity you think you are because love has been rejected in the world of dreams.
This purge is necessary for what you are stepping into and because you are so connected in love, they are both helping you to do that (certain energies in my / your field). Let go of the fantasy of circumstance. Your grief has fueled the fire of your transformation, of transubstantiation. You are quite literally turning it into a new form.
You don’t clear to achieve specific physical circumstances or a hypothetical future but to experience yourself as you ARE - peaceful, loving, happy, right now.
